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Krissy Mae Cagney 🏳️‍🌈

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  • Our bags are currently lost in Europe.
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All our outdoor & hiking gear for the Matterhorn. All clothing, toiletries, etc. Everything except our camera gear & the clothes on our backs. Still smiling.
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This obviously wasn’t how we expected to start my birthday trip. Once we realized the bags didn’t make it, I almost let the fear set in. But I kept it together as we headed to the Swissport lost baggage office to file our claim. You see, getting upset is not a productive emotion in our current situation. We’re seeing the world—which is a privilege & a half—thus there’s no time to be sad over lost luggage, even it fucks things up the first few days.
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The way I see it, I have a choice here. No matter how I choose to react to this, the bags are still going to take the same amount of time to be found & delivered to us. I can get mad, get sad, or refuse to do anything until they show up. Or I can not worry about it & enjoy the adventure that is currently sitting in my lap, despite being in these grimy ass sweat pants for like 48 hours now. I might look & feel disgusting, but so what? At least Ben is equally smelly & gross!
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I probably would have let this consume me & ruin both my mood & the trip 3-4 years ago, as back then I thought travel had to be PERFECT in every sense. I also invested too much effort into outfit selections & to much time into looking “cute” 🙄 lol. As I’ve made my way around the world more over the years, I’ve realized how little that shit matters, if at all.
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I’ve also learned the messier & more challenging trips are the ones the build the most character & transform you for the better. So I’m welcoming this hiccup with open arms, as I know something good will end up coming from it, I just have to let it.
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Thanks for reading ❤️ KMC
📸 @on.the.rode
  • Our bags are currently lost in Europe.
    -
    All our outdoor & hiking gear for the Matterhorn. All clothing, toiletries, etc. Everything except our camera gear & the clothes on our backs. Still smiling.
    -
    This obviously wasn’t how we expected to start my birthday trip. Once we realized the bags didn’t make it, I almost let the fear set in. But I kept it together as we headed to the Swissport lost baggage office to file our claim. You see, getting upset is not a productive emotion in our current situation. We’re seeing the world—which is a privilege & a half—thus there’s no time to be sad over lost luggage, even it fucks things up the first few days.
    -
    The way I see it, I have a choice here. No matter how I choose to react to this, the bags are still going to take the same amount of time to be found & delivered to us. I can get mad, get sad, or refuse to do anything until they show up. Or I can not worry about it & enjoy the adventure that is currently sitting in my lap, despite being in these grimy ass sweat pants for like 48 hours now. I might look & feel disgusting, but so what? At least Ben is equally smelly & gross!
    -
    I probably would have let this consume me & ruin both my mood & the trip 3-4 years ago, as back then I thought travel had to be PERFECT in every sense. I also invested too much effort into outfit selections & to much time into looking “cute” 🙄 lol. As I’ve made my way around the world more over the years, I’ve realized how little that shit matters, if at all.
    -
    I’ve also learned the messier & more challenging trips are the ones the build the most character & transform you for the better. So I’m welcoming this hiccup with open arms, as I know something good will end up coming from it, I just have to let it.
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    Thanks for reading ❤️ KMC
    📸 @on.the.rode
  •  19,329  206  18 June, 2019
  • Life is a trip
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These are my best friends, @chlojonsson & @quiana_welch. In 2016, we were single athletes living under one roof, fucking off. I think we secretly thought we would live out our days like that forever. We had absolutely no idea they were ending, thus nothing felt particularly special about them at the time. They were just days.
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Enter Ben who completely blindsided me. I fell hard & fast. He moved in with us girls right away, which I was over the moon about. My attention was on my flourishing relationship from then on, but since we all lived together, I saw the girls daily at work & home. Those days were also numbered.
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In March 2018, we split into 2 houses, Q staying with me. I gave Chlo a kitchen table from our first house. I didn’t think much of it, she just needed a table at her new place & I had two.
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Fast forward 6 months & Q is pregnant. Another beautiful, unforeseen event that quickly ended life as we all knew it. We all moved on to yet another phase of life together. Q got a place with Chlo to let Ben & I be newlyweds.
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Sorry to air the drama, ladies, but there’s an ongoing table saga in their new place. The table I gave Chlo doesn’t fit right. I said, “fuck it, give it to one of our employees who...” before I could finish, Chlo sternly says, “no, I love that table, it reminds me of when we lived in the first house & it makes me happy”.
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Fuuuuuck.
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I cried alone the first chance I could bc something hit me. In 2016, we had no idea those were our last days as a girl pack. As ordinary as they were, as much as Iove my life with Ben & wouldn’t trade it for a thing, the fact is that I’ll never get that time back with Chlo & Q to be more present. If we wanted to go back & relive that time even for a day, we can’t. It’s gone.
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The point is not that I “miss” that time of life. The point is that life is special at very ordinary stages & we don’t celebrate, as we look ahead toward the big stuff. Living with your best buds wont last forever... because adulting. Falling in love & having a baby are beautiful things that start something new, but we forget they end things too.
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So be more present & enjoy the small stuff, it’s not here forever.
  • Life is a trip
    -
    These are my best friends, @chlojonsson & @quiana_welch. In 2016, we were single athletes living under one roof, fucking off. I think we secretly thought we would live out our days like that forever. We had absolutely no idea they were ending, thus nothing felt particularly special about them at the time. They were just days.
    -
    Enter Ben who completely blindsided me. I fell hard & fast. He moved in with us girls right away, which I was over the moon about. My attention was on my flourishing relationship from then on, but since we all lived together, I saw the girls daily at work & home. Those days were also numbered.
    -
    In March 2018, we split into 2 houses, Q staying with me. I gave Chlo a kitchen table from our first house. I didn’t think much of it, she just needed a table at her new place & I had two.
    -
    Fast forward 6 months & Q is pregnant. Another beautiful, unforeseen event that quickly ended life as we all knew it. We all moved on to yet another phase of life together. Q got a place with Chlo to let Ben & I be newlyweds.
    -
    Sorry to air the drama, ladies, but there’s an ongoing table saga in their new place. The table I gave Chlo doesn’t fit right. I said, “fuck it, give it to one of our employees who...” before I could finish, Chlo sternly says, “no, I love that table, it reminds me of when we lived in the first house & it makes me happy”.
    -
    Fuuuuuck.
    -
    I cried alone the first chance I could bc something hit me. In 2016, we had no idea those were our last days as a girl pack. As ordinary as they were, as much as Iove my life with Ben & wouldn’t trade it for a thing, the fact is that I’ll never get that time back with Chlo & Q to be more present. If we wanted to go back & relive that time even for a day, we can’t. It’s gone.
    -
    The point is not that I “miss” that time of life. The point is that life is special at very ordinary stages & we don’t celebrate, as we look ahead toward the big stuff. Living with your best buds wont last forever... because adulting. Falling in love & having a baby are beautiful things that start something new, but we forget they end things too.
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    So be more present & enjoy the small stuff, it’s not here forever.
  •  20,678  270  14 June, 2019
  • Whats the deal with long captions under bikini pics?
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People are apparently taking issue with girls who write long captions under their bikini pics; the type of post you are currently looking at. Hi, checking in & chiming in on this, as a plethora of chicks actually do write quality shit under bikini pics, believe it or not.
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Here’s the lame thing: females can’t win.
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If we post bikini pics with emojis as the caption, we’re “cheap, thirsty insta-hoes”. And if we post bikini pics with a novel as the caption, we’re incognito cheap, thirsty insta-hoes.🤦🏼‍♀️
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We can’t showcase our physical & mental attributes at the same time without getting made fun of or name called. This is problematic. It’s summer, we’re in bikinis, we’re working on our relationships with our bodies, & we have shit to say. Let us do it all at once free of judgement pls.
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In my opinion, there’s absolutely nothing wrong with adding substance to superficial content. I actually encourage it. The girls being vulnerable by sharing both their bodies & their minds all at once are the ones doing some of the best work for females. That’s who I find myself most inspired by, as I’m a sucker for vulnerability.
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I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little jelly of the babes who can post bikini pics with short caption & grow massive followings. But it’s more important to me to attract like minded people with similar passions & interests. I use my platform to serve & raise awareness. That’s why I write long captions. Everything I put out has to have purpose, as this is part of my recovery/sobriety. I’m here to connect, not to be popular. I connect in my captions, the photos are just ways to grab your attention so that you read all the way to here.😘
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Now it’s also my duty to remind you of the following:
1️⃣ You can post bikini pics you love of yourself without a long caption to justify it. Fuck anyone who wants to judge you for feeling yourself, bye.
2️⃣ You don’t need to only post bikini pics to get love on social media. You’re more than your body.
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Thanks for reading my rant, love you guys!
  • Whats the deal with long captions under bikini pics?
    -
    People are apparently taking issue with girls who write long captions under their bikini pics; the type of post you are currently looking at. Hi, checking in & chiming in on this, as a plethora of chicks actually do write quality shit under bikini pics, believe it or not.
    -
    Here’s the lame thing: females can’t win.
    -
    If we post bikini pics with emojis as the caption, we’re “cheap, thirsty insta-hoes”. And if we post bikini pics with a novel as the caption, we’re incognito cheap, thirsty insta-hoes.🤦🏼‍♀️
    -
    We can’t showcase our physical & mental attributes at the same time without getting made fun of or name called. This is problematic. It’s summer, we’re in bikinis, we’re working on our relationships with our bodies, & we have shit to say. Let us do it all at once free of judgement pls.
    -
    In my opinion, there’s absolutely nothing wrong with adding substance to superficial content. I actually encourage it. The girls being vulnerable by sharing both their bodies & their minds all at once are the ones doing some of the best work for females. That’s who I find myself most inspired by, as I’m a sucker for vulnerability.
    -
    I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little jelly of the babes who can post bikini pics with short caption & grow massive followings. But it’s more important to me to attract like minded people with similar passions & interests. I use my platform to serve & raise awareness. That’s why I write long captions. Everything I put out has to have purpose, as this is part of my recovery/sobriety. I’m here to connect, not to be popular. I connect in my captions, the photos are just ways to grab your attention so that you read all the way to here.😘
    -
    Now it’s also my duty to remind you of the following:
    1️⃣ You can post bikini pics you love of yourself without a long caption to justify it. Fuck anyone who wants to judge you for feeling yourself, bye.
    2️⃣ You don’t need to only post bikini pics to get love on social media. You’re more than your body.
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    Thanks for reading my rant, love you guys!
  •  34,846  560  13 June, 2019
  • The straw thing sent me down a plastic rabbit hole.
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It opened my eyes & I quickly came to realize that I throw away too much plastic, despite my efforts to be very environmentally conscious in general. One staple in my life came to mind pretty much immediately: PLASTIC ZIPLOC BAGS, holy fack!!
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You see, your girl has more than just a cold brew habit. She has a snacking habit & a traveling habit. Both these habits require putting a lot of things in Ziploc bags. I literally have been putting my entire life in single-ish use plastic bags for years… turns out there are solutions for this. I can proudly say that I haven’t had to buy Ziploc bags for months now. Ditching single use stuff also really saves the bucks.
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I first purchased @FullCircle bags (from Target) because they are adorable, I mean look at the aesthetic of these things. Then I did some research & found that they­— along with a slew of other reusable storage bag brands like @StasherBag—are giving back to help clean up the planet. BADASS. You have my support. (Now is a good time to remind everyone that I do not post ads or sponsored content 😎)
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The other thing that immediately came to mind is online shopping. While I am ALL for shopping local when you have to make a purchase, Reno isn’t exactly popping off with my preferred options. I am very guilty of making my photography, outdoor gear, & clothing purchases online. This means things showing up wrapped in plastic film packaging, unlike buying directly from a store.
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Obviously—above all else—the aim should be to buy less shit in general, but we are all only human. While I have always done my best to recycle what I could from my online shopping, I repeatedly threw away a shitload of plastic film. So I started saving it with the intent to repurpose it. I literally shove it all in a massive bag & stick in the corner of a closet. I might not repurpose all of it till I need to move or something, but I will figure it out.
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I appreciate all the suggestions & feedback on the straw post! It makes me feel REALLY good to know that a lot you not only ❤️ the planet, but you’re also willing to help me set the best example I personally can.
  • The straw thing sent me down a plastic rabbit hole.
    ::
    It opened my eyes & I quickly came to realize that I throw away too much plastic, despite my efforts to be very environmentally conscious in general. One staple in my life came to mind pretty much immediately: PLASTIC ZIPLOC BAGS, holy fack!!
    ::
    You see, your girl has more than just a cold brew habit. She has a snacking habit & a traveling habit. Both these habits require putting a lot of things in Ziploc bags. I literally have been putting my entire life in single-ish use plastic bags for years… turns out there are solutions for this. I can proudly say that I haven’t had to buy Ziploc bags for months now. Ditching single use stuff also really saves the bucks.
    ::
    I first purchased @FullCircle bags (from Target) because they are adorable, I mean look at the aesthetic of these things. Then I did some research & found that they­— along with a slew of other reusable storage bag brands like @StasherBag—are giving back to help clean up the planet. BADASS. You have my support. (Now is a good time to remind everyone that I do not post ads or sponsored content 😎)
    ::
    The other thing that immediately came to mind is online shopping. While I am ALL for shopping local when you have to make a purchase, Reno isn’t exactly popping off with my preferred options. I am very guilty of making my photography, outdoor gear, & clothing purchases online. This means things showing up wrapped in plastic film packaging, unlike buying directly from a store.
    ::
    Obviously—above all else—the aim should be to buy less shit in general, but we are all only human. While I have always done my best to recycle what I could from my online shopping, I repeatedly threw away a shitload of plastic film. So I started saving it with the intent to repurpose it. I literally shove it all in a massive bag & stick in the corner of a closet. I might not repurpose all of it till I need to move or something, but I will figure it out.
    ::
    I appreciate all the suggestions & feedback on the straw post! It makes me feel REALLY good to know that a lot you not only ❤️ the planet, but you’re also willing to help me set the best example I personally can.
  •  18,022  0  12 June, 2019
  • Where’d all the fitness & nutrition content go?
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Its not gone, it was just hanging out in the back seat while I worked through some mental & physical stuff. And since I ain’t no phony faker, when there isn’t a whole lot of the health-n-fitness going on in my life, it’s impossible for me to force those types of posts. Hence, the diversion to mindset & lifestyle content when I’m less active.
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Fitness & nutrition have still been a very big part of my life professionally, but I’m quite honestly living on trash food & like I said, I haven’t been prioritizing the gym. And while it might not show physically—YET—it sure FEELS like I have been living a sedentary, shit diet life. One might even draw the conclusion that my shit diet is partially responsible for my lack of energy & motivation to lift 🤔. I need an IV of vegetable juice & a barbell in my hands. It’s time. I’m ready.
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So as lifting becomes a staple again & I start eating right, you can expect to see those posts trickle into my feed. But expect them to look a little different than they have in the past. I personally don’t care to post educational fitness & nutrition content anymore... 🤷🏼‍♀️
Less numbers. More mindset.
Less science. More passion.
ScIence is tight, but I’m not here to give college lectures. I’m here to be real AF.
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You can get badass information on lifting & nutrition from so many smart people. What you can’t get from other people are the following things that are unique to me: my personal experiences collected not only from training/competing for 20 years, but being in the industry for 13 years... AND... (more importantly imo) my constantly evolving outlook on what “health” actually is thanks to a wide open mind.
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I want my content to reflect what I’m most passionate about. As you have probably gathered by now, I am no longer passionate about helping people achieve physical & aesthetic extremes when it comes their bodies. That’s not health. I am passionate about helping people love, care for, & honor their bodies, no matter their current physical form. How? By changing & challenging mindsets.
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That’s my shit right now & I hope ya dig.
  • Where’d all the fitness & nutrition content go?
    ::
    Its not gone, it was just hanging out in the back seat while I worked through some mental & physical stuff. And since I ain’t no phony faker, when there isn’t a whole lot of the health-n-fitness going on in my life, it’s impossible for me to force those types of posts. Hence, the diversion to mindset & lifestyle content when I’m less active.
    ::
    Fitness & nutrition have still been a very big part of my life professionally, but I’m quite honestly living on trash food & like I said, I haven’t been prioritizing the gym. And while it might not show physically—YET—it sure FEELS like I have been living a sedentary, shit diet life. One might even draw the conclusion that my shit diet is partially responsible for my lack of energy & motivation to lift 🤔. I need an IV of vegetable juice & a barbell in my hands. It’s time. I’m ready.
    ::
    So as lifting becomes a staple again & I start eating right, you can expect to see those posts trickle into my feed. But expect them to look a little different than they have in the past. I personally don’t care to post educational fitness & nutrition content anymore... 🤷🏼‍♀️
    Less numbers. More mindset.
    Less science. More passion.
    ScIence is tight, but I’m not here to give college lectures. I’m here to be real AF.
    ::
    You can get badass information on lifting & nutrition from so many smart people. What you can’t get from other people are the following things that are unique to me: my personal experiences collected not only from training/competing for 20 years, but being in the industry for 13 years... AND... (more importantly imo) my constantly evolving outlook on what “health” actually is thanks to a wide open mind.
    ::
    I want my content to reflect what I’m most passionate about. As you have probably gathered by now, I am no longer passionate about helping people achieve physical & aesthetic extremes when it comes their bodies. That’s not health. I am passionate about helping people love, care for, & honor their bodies, no matter their current physical form. How? By changing & challenging mindsets.
    ::
    That’s my shit right now & I hope ya dig.
  •  30,194  297  11 June, 2019
  • I got called the fuck out over a plastic straw.
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Rightfully so, but I’ll get to that. I took an adorable selfie whilst drinking my cold brew from Dutch Bros & posted it in my story. I was met with not one, but two replies about my plastic straw. How me “of all people” should “set a better example”. Ouch.
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At first, I defensively thought to myself, “What the fuck do these people know? I don’t buy plastic bottles, I recycle, I reuse grocery bags, I’m a mindful consumer with the environment, I pick trash up off the ground, & I own a Tesla.” I wanted to get mad, block them, & not tell anyone about it. But that would be incredibly counterproductive to who I’m trying to be. Instead, I’m telling 400k people about it into make an example out of myself.
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It’s no secret that I’m an ambassador for the environment on all levels. To get called out about my straw was nothing short of humiliating, honestly. I was being defensive because I felt very guilty. I knew I could be doing more. Additionally, I knew what a huge problem plastic straws are specifically. If you don’t know, Americans use about 500 million plastic straws A DAY, most of which end up in the ocean. Your girl drinks too much iced coffee & I truly was contributing to the problem. I was personally putting hundreds of straws in the oceans each year. This felt yucky.
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So, I did something about it. Turns out a package of 15 reusable silicone straws runs about $8 on Amazon, which ain’t no thang, especially to those of us who can afford bounteous amounts of cold brew. Now I keep them with me at all times & have no issue saying, “no straw, please” when I order my cold brews. Am I perfect? Nah. Sometimes I forget my straws & sometimes I forget to ask for no straw. But I’m trying.
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To the ladies whom I completely ignored & deleted your messages: I sincerely apologize & I thank you for calling me out, as it made me change. I hope I have redeemed myself with both my actions & this post.
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If anyone has any further suggestions about reducing plastic consumption beyond straws, I am all ears. I have recently moved over to reusable baggies & ditched single use ziploc bags.
  • I got called the fuck out over a plastic straw.
    ::
    Rightfully so, but I’ll get to that. I took an adorable selfie whilst drinking my cold brew from Dutch Bros & posted it in my story. I was met with not one, but two replies about my plastic straw. How me “of all people” should “set a better example”. Ouch.
    ::
    At first, I defensively thought to myself, “What the fuck do these people know? I don’t buy plastic bottles, I recycle, I reuse grocery bags, I’m a mindful consumer with the environment, I pick trash up off the ground, & I own a Tesla.” I wanted to get mad, block them, & not tell anyone about it. But that would be incredibly counterproductive to who I’m trying to be. Instead, I’m telling 400k people about it into make an example out of myself.
    ::
    It’s no secret that I’m an ambassador for the environment on all levels. To get called out about my straw was nothing short of humiliating, honestly. I was being defensive because I felt very guilty. I knew I could be doing more. Additionally, I knew what a huge problem plastic straws are specifically. If you don’t know, Americans use about 500 million plastic straws A DAY, most of which end up in the ocean. Your girl drinks too much iced coffee & I truly was contributing to the problem. I was personally putting hundreds of straws in the oceans each year. This felt yucky.
    ::
    So, I did something about it. Turns out a package of 15 reusable silicone straws runs about $8 on Amazon, which ain’t no thang, especially to those of us who can afford bounteous amounts of cold brew. Now I keep them with me at all times & have no issue saying, “no straw, please” when I order my cold brews. Am I perfect? Nah. Sometimes I forget my straws & sometimes I forget to ask for no straw. But I’m trying.
    ::
    To the ladies whom I completely ignored & deleted your messages: I sincerely apologize & I thank you for calling me out, as it made me change. I hope I have redeemed myself with both my actions & this post.
    ::
    If anyone has any further suggestions about reducing plastic consumption beyond straws, I am all ears. I have recently moved over to reusable baggies & ditched single use ziploc bags.
  •  23,619  518  10 June, 2019
  • Do I help them grow or do they help me grow?
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It’s officially gardening season. I’m sure it’s fkn boring to most of you, but I really love to share this thing that improves my overall quality of life. You may think I garden because of my views on sustainability or perhaps you think I have a boner for extremely organic produce. Incorrect.
🥒
I actually garden for my mental health. It has been HUGE not only in my recovery from addiction, but in my ability to manage both anxiety & depression. Gardening has become a unique form of therapy for me over the years without me even realizing it, as this isn’t exactly why I started gardening.
🍅
I’m honestly not entirely sure why I started. When I was living in NYC, I saw rooftop gardens & thought they were so cool. Literally the only thing I knew about gardening was that it requires patience, which I had none. Since I’ve always been drawn to things that are foreign to me, an urban gardening obsession started brewing. Perhaps gardening was such a foreign concept to me, that I just wanted the challenge. So I took it. When I moved back to Nevada, I built a bed out of cinder blocks, lined it with trash bags, & taught myself how to garden thanks to the help of Pinterest paired with whole mess of trail & error.
🥦
I had absolutely no idea as to what my garden would start to do for my mental health. I eventually realized that tending to a garden is one of the few things that has the ability to turn my crazy brain off, which is a hard thing to do. If I’m feeling anxious or sad, I stick my hands in the dirt. When I’m in the garden, it’s all that exists. Whatever is going on in my head, stops. And I give myself some peace & quiet while I help my plants grow. “How lovely the silence of growing things”.
🥕
Then—after going through the spiritual experience of growing the shit—it then returns the favor via nourishment. There’s something about being responsible for the life of an organism that is going to nourish me in return for my care that really does it for me. A garden gives back. I just think that’s the coolest, most rewarding shit on so many levels.
  • Do I help them grow or do they help me grow?
    🌶
    It’s officially gardening season. I’m sure it’s fkn boring to most of you, but I really love to share this thing that improves my overall quality of life. You may think I garden because of my views on sustainability or perhaps you think I have a boner for extremely organic produce. Incorrect.
    🥒
    I actually garden for my mental health. It has been HUGE not only in my recovery from addiction, but in my ability to manage both anxiety & depression. Gardening has become a unique form of therapy for me over the years without me even realizing it, as this isn’t exactly why I started gardening.
    🍅
    I’m honestly not entirely sure why I started. When I was living in NYC, I saw rooftop gardens & thought they were so cool. Literally the only thing I knew about gardening was that it requires patience, which I had none. Since I’ve always been drawn to things that are foreign to me, an urban gardening obsession started brewing. Perhaps gardening was such a foreign concept to me, that I just wanted the challenge. So I took it. When I moved back to Nevada, I built a bed out of cinder blocks, lined it with trash bags, & taught myself how to garden thanks to the help of Pinterest paired with whole mess of trail & error.
    🥦
    I had absolutely no idea as to what my garden would start to do for my mental health. I eventually realized that tending to a garden is one of the few things that has the ability to turn my crazy brain off, which is a hard thing to do. If I’m feeling anxious or sad, I stick my hands in the dirt. When I’m in the garden, it’s all that exists. Whatever is going on in my head, stops. And I give myself some peace & quiet while I help my plants grow. “How lovely the silence of growing things”.
    🥕
    Then—after going through the spiritual experience of growing the shit—it then returns the favor via nourishment. There’s something about being responsible for the life of an organism that is going to nourish me in return for my care that really does it for me. A garden gives back. I just think that’s the coolest, most rewarding shit on so many levels.
  •  17,284  234  3 June, 2019
  • I’m literally & figuratively on top of the world, as today I am 6 years clean & sober from a whole mess of substances.
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I pretty much did this by not drinking alcohol or using drugs for 6 years. While that sounds simple, it is the most difficult thing I have ever done in my life, by a landslide. But since it is also the most rewarding thing I’ve ever done, I’ve let it be hard when it’s needed to be. It’s a constant ebb & flow that takes ongoing work & discomfort. A lot of it gets easier as time goes on, a lot of it gets harder. The hard stuff is what makes you better, welcome it with open arms & handle it.
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To the good 3-5k of you still around who watched me slowly fall apart on here pre May 28 2013 (as it wasn’t exactly private): thank you for sticking around & believing in me—it’s been some shit. You are wonderful, accepting, kind people. It means the world to me when you tell me that you’re proud of me.
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To everyone’s who’s joined since May 28 2013 & knows my story: thank you for not judging me, learning about what people like me go through, & being eager to learn more. You’re helping so much by letting me be open. You have no idea. You have absolutely no idea. Thank you.
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I love you ALL so so so much!
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YAY ME!!!!
  • I’m literally & figuratively on top of the world, as today I am 6 years clean & sober from a whole mess of substances.
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    I pretty much did this by not drinking alcohol or using drugs for 6 years. While that sounds simple, it is the most difficult thing I have ever done in my life, by a landslide. But since it is also the most rewarding thing I’ve ever done, I’ve let it be hard when it’s needed to be. It’s a constant ebb & flow that takes ongoing work & discomfort. A lot of it gets easier as time goes on, a lot of it gets harder. The hard stuff is what makes you better, welcome it with open arms & handle it.
    ::
    To the good 3-5k of you still around who watched me slowly fall apart on here pre May 28 2013 (as it wasn’t exactly private): thank you for sticking around & believing in me—it’s been some shit. You are wonderful, accepting, kind people. It means the world to me when you tell me that you’re proud of me.
    ::
    To everyone’s who’s joined since May 28 2013 & knows my story: thank you for not judging me, learning about what people like me go through, & being eager to learn more. You’re helping so much by letting me be open. You have no idea. You have absolutely no idea. Thank you.
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    I love you ALL so so so much!
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    YAY ME!!!!
  •  23,140  367  28 May, 2019
  • WE DON’T WANT KIDS
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At first this used to make me feel guilty & selfish, mostly because of how it’s usually received by people (not well ha). In order to stop feeling bad about not wanting to be a mother, I had to switch my mindset from “we don’t want a house & kids, there’s something wrong with us” to “we truly want a more nontraditional lifestyle/marriage & that’s totally ok”. What’s not ok is how often people try to change our minds about what we want for OUR future.
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We love kids, we just don’t want our own. Parenthood isn’t for us. It’s not what we’ve been working toward together all these years; it simply doesn’t appeal on many levels, nor does it make sense for our lifestyle. After getting married in September, Ben & I have been bombarded with the “when are you making babies?!” question more times than we can count. When we say NEVER we are almost always met the following response:
“How could you not want kids? You would be great parents! You’ll change your minds, give a couple years.”
And ya know, it’s frustrating. Why can’t we just not want kids?
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The end goal has always been freedom to roam the world. A house, kids, & too much stuff are sorta the opposite of what we’re slowly working toward. I have been made to feel like I’m less of a woman for not wanting children. People have made me feel like my marriage isn’t as “important” as theirs for not wanting or having children. Guess what? It’s ok to want something other than kids & anyone who is in our boat isn’t less for wanting a nontraditional marriage. It’s ok to just want your human, your dogs, endless adventures, & nothing holding you back from seeing the world.
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Lastly, this world just isn’t a great place right now. Parenting this day in age seems horrifying. Scary times.
  • WE DON’T WANT KIDS
    ••
    At first this used to make me feel guilty & selfish, mostly because of how it’s usually received by people (not well ha). In order to stop feeling bad about not wanting to be a mother, I had to switch my mindset from “we don’t want a house & kids, there’s something wrong with us” to “we truly want a more nontraditional lifestyle/marriage & that’s totally ok”. What’s not ok is how often people try to change our minds about what we want for OUR future.
    ••
    We love kids, we just don’t want our own. Parenthood isn’t for us. It’s not what we’ve been working toward together all these years; it simply doesn’t appeal on many levels, nor does it make sense for our lifestyle. After getting married in September, Ben & I have been bombarded with the “when are you making babies?!” question more times than we can count. When we say NEVER we are almost always met the following response:
    “How could you not want kids? You would be great parents! You’ll change your minds, give a couple years.”
    And ya know, it’s frustrating. Why can’t we just not want kids?
    ••
    The end goal has always been freedom to roam the world. A house, kids, & too much stuff are sorta the opposite of what we’re slowly working toward. I have been made to feel like I’m less of a woman for not wanting children. People have made me feel like my marriage isn’t as “important” as theirs for not wanting or having children. Guess what? It’s ok to want something other than kids & anyone who is in our boat isn’t less for wanting a nontraditional marriage. It’s ok to just want your human, your dogs, endless adventures, & nothing holding you back from seeing the world.
    ••
    Lastly, this world just isn’t a great place right now. Parenting this day in age seems horrifying. Scary times.
  •  26,395  1,220  24 May, 2019
  • Why be racist, sexist, homophobic, or transphobic when you could just be quiet?
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There’s a lot happening right now in the political climate of this country, so I’m going to remind all of you who the fuck I am and what I try to use my platform—and privilege—for. Let’s weed some of y’all hateful fuckers out who follow me for the wrong reasons... this is not a “tits n ass” page (only sometimes😂).
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I’m a pro-choice, anti-racism, LGBTQ allying, BLM protesting, immigrant supporting, bisexual liberal. I show the fuck up for social justice. I always will.
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If who I am and what I believe in completely enrages you, unfollow me. If you keep following, watch yourself in the comments sections here (or on any of my friends accounts). As you may know, I have zero issue putting hateful bigots on blast in my story and on Twitter. I have a decent sized following, so chances are someone you know might see it. So like this shirt says, just shhhh🤫.
  • Why be racist, sexist, homophobic, or transphobic when you could just be quiet?
    ::
    There’s a lot happening right now in the political climate of this country, so I’m going to remind all of you who the fuck I am and what I try to use my platform—and privilege—for. Let’s weed some of y’all hateful fuckers out who follow me for the wrong reasons... this is not a “tits n ass” page (only sometimes😂).
    ::
    I’m a pro-choice, anti-racism, LGBTQ allying, BLM protesting, immigrant supporting, bisexual liberal. I show the fuck up for social justice. I always will.
    ::
    If who I am and what I believe in completely enrages you, unfollow me. If you keep following, watch yourself in the comments sections here (or on any of my friends accounts). As you may know, I have zero issue putting hateful bigots on blast in my story and on Twitter. I have a decent sized following, so chances are someone you know might see it. So like this shirt says, just shhhh🤫.
  •  25,690  0  20 May, 2019
  • Happy 😌🧡
  • Happy 😌🧡
  •  19,717  182  18 May, 2019
  • When I’m outside, I feel a very real pull. One I’ve never felt anywhere else. I feel in place. Like I belong. Something I don’t feel very often in life, quite honestly.
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I know I’m always saying “go the fuck outside, it’s good for your health”, but nature is so much more than that. It’s nourishment to our souls. It’s a free form of therapy, filled with lessons & wisdom. I’ve dealt with SO MUCH of my own bullshit (including severe drug addiction & depression) by spending time in the wilderness. That’s powerful.
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This earth has truly formed me the same way it’s formed itself over all the years. My interactions with mountains, water, rocks, trees, animals, & stars have helped forge me into the person I am.
These interactions...
They speak to soul.
They clear my head.
They fill my heart.
These above mentioned interactions send messages to the three above mentioned places. A message that I’m a very real piece of the puzzle that is life. I am a small part of a crazy, complicated thing. My soul, my head, & my heart feel at peace as they receive these signals.
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And I think that’s what feels so good & why I keep seeking the outdoor adventure therapy the way that I do. A peaceful, clear sense of purpose & belonging is all we can really hope for in this life.
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📸 @on.the.rode
  • When I’m outside, I feel a very real pull. One I’ve never felt anywhere else. I feel in place. Like I belong. Something I don’t feel very often in life, quite honestly.
    :::
    I know I’m always saying “go the fuck outside, it’s good for your health”, but nature is so much more than that. It’s nourishment to our souls. It’s a free form of therapy, filled with lessons & wisdom. I’ve dealt with SO MUCH of my own bullshit (including severe drug addiction & depression) by spending time in the wilderness. That’s powerful.
    :::
    This earth has truly formed me the same way it’s formed itself over all the years. My interactions with mountains, water, rocks, trees, animals, & stars have helped forge me into the person I am.
    These interactions...
    They speak to soul.
    They clear my head.
    They fill my heart.
    These above mentioned interactions send messages to the three above mentioned places. A message that I’m a very real piece of the puzzle that is life. I am a small part of a crazy, complicated thing. My soul, my head, & my heart feel at peace as they receive these signals.
    :::
    And I think that’s what feels so good & why I keep seeking the outdoor adventure therapy the way that I do. A peaceful, clear sense of purpose & belonging is all we can really hope for in this life.
    :::
    📸 @on.the.rode
  •  13,101  103  14 May, 2019